I haven’t slept since
I haven’t digested anything
My mind is in a whirlwind
And my heart is hanging on by a string
All it took was one simple act
To rip my whole life right off track
Everything I knew, everything I needed
All were lies before you conceded
Maturity comes at my own expense
Since I failed to learn from another’s experience
Perfection I knew never existed
But still, I convinced myself to become invested
Forgiveness is what forgiveness does
Embracing the sinner, covering them with love
For neither am I perfect, maybe I am even worse
Who am I to not forgive you, though painful, this hurts
How do I heal, can I recover?
Forgiveness is easy but how does one get over
What haven’t you said, where is the residue
Have I got all admissions, did I follow all the clues
Will you help me heal or just hate my unbelief?
Will our past hang over our newfound release?
Is it better that you lied, so now I know all possibilities?
Or should I just forgive you and lose all insecurities?
I know you expect me to trust your new words
And yes it is what my heart does prefer
But is that who you are and is this just a glimpse?
Was my whole world a lie or tell me, since?
Forgetting is a bitch, detailing another
For my mind won’t allow my heart to recover
So how do I heal, how do I rebuild
I’ll just love you with all my heart
and trust you until
Just know I’m so broken
I will need time to heal
I trust all words are spoken
And all secrets revealed
Don’t take my love for granted,
nor my forgiveness make light
Although I fail you too and hurt you sometimes
You’ve been perfectly imperfect and so have I
Of this, I will never lose sight
I love you; so forgiving you was not by choice
You’re still my angel, I’ll stand by your side
Written by Racquel Reece © 2018
All rights reserved.
Forgiveness is like a passage, you will have to go through some to get through life with joy. Many times I thought I was forgiving someone because they hurt me, but I soon learned that forgiving them was for my own peace.